At the beginning of each year I ask God to give me one or two words for me to focus on throughout the year. At this time last year I was 9 months pregnant and having contractions on and off throughout the day. I had no clue what life with 3 kids would be like, nor the challenge that lay before me. Survival seemed to be my theme for last year, but really, I know God helped me do more than just survive.
I’m excited to start 2011 with something completely different (& new) for me. My amazing husband gave me a 2-day getaway a couple weeks ago, so I headed straight to the beach- the place I run to whenever I want to feel the closest to God. This was my view.
FOCUS & DISCIPLINE were the two words ringing in my ears as I prayed and sought God those two days. I have a tendency to want to get involved in doing so many things- even good things. The problem is, a lot of the things I spend the most time in are: things I’m not gifted in, things that I feel pressured to do, or things that I’m just doing to impress someone else. If I’m not careful, I can fill my time up with these things rather than what God has actually called me to do.
Since the beginning of January, God has given me such incredible focus and discipline, and strangely enough, I’ve accomplished far more in the last 2 weeks than I can remember in a very long time- at least since I’ve had kids.
One of the things that has helped me tremendously is being able to take part in Awakening. I’ve been so blessed by being a part of the fast and spending more time with God throughout the day.
Back in November, Efraim seemed to lose interest in nursing, and I began fighting with him at almost every feeding to eat. I quickly realized that it was not worth it, and so I started the weaning process (he was 10 months when I started); between Thanksgiving and Christmas, he was completely weaned. As the new year approached, I remembered the fast would begin, and I was so excited I would be able to do it too!
For the past several years, I’ve been either pregnant and/or breastfeeding when something like this was happening, and since fasting isn’t very healthy for the baby, I could never be a part of it. It may seem a little crazy, but I really was bummed that I couldn’t fast. Not because I enjoy the process, but because I know the significance of it, and how God works in your life through it.
We are 1 week in, and I’m amazed at some of the things God has already done in my life to draw me closer to Him, and to give me more focus to do what He’s called me to do, not to mention the discipline to see it through. I’m so excited for these next two weeks, and expecting Him to do even more.
What about you? Do you have a theme or focus for 2011?