Losing Normal & Low Expectations

I’ve learned time and again not to get too comfy with life. Whether it’s a house, a job, family size, or a favorite pair of jeans. And it seems like every time I do, God comes along beside me, and gently, but urgently, leads me into a new direction, toward a new place, where even my favorite pair of jeans no longer belong. I don’t know why I try, but I do. To find normal. Like a lost puppy that’s run away or something. The funny thing is I don’t even like normal, never have (puppies are okay). But something…

Santos Adoption: New Realities

Our time here in Brazil is quickly coming to an end. After fifty days, we will begin our long trek home tonight. The big miracle is all our paperwork is complete. We picked up the boys’ passports at the U.S. Consulate yesterday (insert HUGE sigh of relief). Needless to say we’re all pretty excited to go home. It’s been so good for our family to be here. Good in a hard sorta way. Having this time to bond with the boys here in their home country (& Filipe’s) has been so good for all of us….

Santos Adoption: Thirty Days

I’m sitting in the same hotel room I sat thirty days ago when we were waiting to meet the boys, except this time the boys are here with us. In less than two hours we will meet with the Judge and our adoption will be finalized. The boys will soon forever be Santos’s. The last thirty days have been quite the roller coaster. Some days are relatively smooth, other days I find myself counting down the minutes till bedtime. (And then I cope with it all by pressing “next episode” on Gilmore Girls. It ain’t…

Santos Adoption: Firsts & Love

We’ve had a lot of firsts since we met the boys two weeks ago. Most of the firsts are reason to pause and smile- like the first time flying a kite and eating ice cream. Some are a reason your heart breaks just a little more for them- like when they tell you how they normally walk alone to church every Sunday and sit on the front row throughout mass. A few bring you to your knees- like when they’re anger is on display. It looks like the honeymoon phase of this adoption is wearing off…